#53

Just Where Is It?

To wherever you are right now, let me ask you one thing...
Have you ever felt like the place that you're in is pushing you away?
Like there's this invisible force that wants to chase you out.
Either it's a good thing or a bad thing, we don't know for sure.
The only certainty is that this isn't the right place for you.

How did you even end up there? Is it out of curiosity, or bound by a curse?
We are all too naive. In the end, it only got you hurt.
The confidence to stay or the courage to leave, which one do you have?
Because me, I neither have both. Only fear and anxiety attacks.
I just can't blend in to anywhere I go.
As time passes by, I learned how to be a mere shadow.

Living away from home isn't easy.
Where does that home even exist?
If only I know, I would've packed my things and went to it without notice.
I know it's a pathetic thing to do but the thing is, I'm just very lonely.
Well, at least I have this beer by my side to bring warmth and comfort me.

ー侘寂.