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#49

 A Truce with Life and Death



I should have known better

To seek out death won't solve it all

Perhaps it's the most cowardly thing to do

But what can I do when everyone else was so far away



All this time I stayed ignorant

Because that's how I endured all of their lies

Sadness, loneliness, anger---these emotions are the only ones I am familiar with

But I shouldn't have fell victim to it



What good does it make anyway?

To settle with a dead heart has always been an easy way to escape

Am I really satisfied with just giving it all up

Without even knowing what the sun and trees, the ocean, and seas look like? 



A resolve started to slowly build up in my heart

I can feel the air filling up my lungs

I think this is the first time I can finally breathe

It almost felt like I returned from the brink of death 



I should have done this from the beginning

I should have wished for strength and not my demise

I just grew tired of being angry all the time

From now on I won't run away and look ahead with time as my ally. 

ー侘寂.

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  1. Unknown12/11/20, 12:08 AM

    Time will come we will be alone, yes its part. We need to learn how to deal with loneliness. Keep up! As long as you are happy and fulfilled, continue doing what you love. :)

    TumugonBurahin

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