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#22

'anxiety in love'


never knew waiting can be this heavy

every tick of the clock amplified along with my heartbeat

cold sweat forming on my palms, chapped lips yearning for the water to run

I hate how this is making me feel

like I'm never enough to fill you up


have you forgotten the nights we spent laughing and knowing what we fear the most?

even the days we'd waste making plans that we expect to do in our homes?

I never want to consider all of this is a waste

because I admit I had fun I don't even want to ask for a break


of all the things I don't know, you are on the top of it

because I never knew what you wanted to do with me

even so, I've always stayed honest with you

and maybe that's why you grew bored of me


what would you even want to do to someone who will immediately cling to you with just a snap of your fingers?

where's the fun in it? it performs no thrill

please don't lie to me now, don't lie to me

high strung but I'm trying.


ー侘寂.

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