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#58

'bakas'


Hindi ko alam kung kailan nagsimula

Na makaramdam ng takot habang tinitignan ka

Dahil sa tagal natin na magkakilala

Para ba'ng hindi sapat ang mga kaalaman ko sa'yo

Upang lubusan na maintindihan ka


Hindi ko alam kung bakit

Na sa tuwing napapatitig ako sa 'yong mga mata

Lumalakas ang pakiramdam ko

At sigurado ako na hindi rin magtatagal

Ay hindi ka na kailanman makikita pa


Tulad ka ng ulan na biglaang bubuhos

Sa kalagitnaan ng panahon na tag-init

Ito ay mahina at bahagya na parang takot at nahihiya

Ngunit kailangan mailabas ang mabigat na bitbit


At pagkatapos ay dahan-dahan nang aalis na parang walang nangyari

Saglit na maglalakbay sa kawalan hanggang sa

Kusang malusaw ang madidilim na ulap mo'ng dala


Kaya't saglit na malilimutan nang lahat na umulan pa

Dahil siyang pagtirik din muli ng araw sa kalangitan

Muling babalik sa dati ang galaw ng mundo

At tuluyan nang natuyo ang iniwang bakas ng ulan sa kalsada.


ー侘寂.

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