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The Million-Dollar Question Remember the time when you asked me, "Can you let me know you, a bit more?" I'm not sure what kind of expression I made Realizing I was willing to let you take a peek Behind this mask and learn who I am But I don't really expect you to stay nor Am I letting you remain by my side after You discover the scars and wounds that I conceal By acting nice and tough like it never stings To be able to know me Is like giving you a reason To forget that you ever met me It's the price that we must pay And no compensation can be accepted  That is the only way I can live my life Where I can not be reminded of shame So, what do you choose... Will you take it, or leave it? Are you willing to risk the faint chance To get closer to someone like me When you know you will gain nothing? ー侘 寂.

Good Love I believe it won't take long When you find someone that could Swim throughout your storm and Go with you even though you're wrong  Hold your hand while you strum The guitar and play your favorite song Together But will it ever? Good love is just around the corner But many lost their sense of direction  Keep your faith in having bright days ahead Concentrate on taking care of yourself So that when the day finally comes And you found the perfect one, Your heart and soul are ready To embrace another love. ー侘 寂.

Muna Ano'ng ibig mo'ng sabihin, Sa mga katagang, 'Hindi tayo ganito dati.'? Masyado ito'ng malabo at hindi na maintindihan  Ang mga salitang lumalabas pa sa 'yong bibig Hindi ko na maramdaman ang dati nating paghuhumaling Hindi na kaya ng pag-ibig mo na umabot pa sa'kin Titigil na muna siguro ako sa pag-iisip at sa pag pilit Na alamin kung ano ba ang tunay na nangyari Nandito lang ako sa lugar kung saan ako makahihinga Kahit na sa iyong tabi ang pinakagusto ko'ng puntahan Huwag sana lumamig ang panahon para sa'tin Ngunit pakiramdam ko ay mga alaala nalang ang nalalabi Sa manipis na taling nakagapos sa ating dalawa. ー侘 寂.

Redemption and Damnation  For the 20 years that I've been here on Earth Barely living in the same old world Just letting the days pass by like I'm watching a film I've always wanted to die. I've done things worse than the criminals I broke hearts, let someone feel bad because of the piercing words I threw at them, left them alone without any reason at all, discarded people like they're nothing. And now, all the sins I've done so far is coming back to me As I lay to rest on my cold and clunky bed Even with my tired eyes, I can't sleep a wink The shadows of the past kept crawling at my feet. I know I won't get away from it that easily. Even though after all I did my soul could only rest in hell, I still clung to the hope that I would continue to breathe But to hope that ridiculous thing for scum like me is something I shouldn't consider in the first place I know that very well but that's a wish that comes with a risk. Until for the first time, when...

 Reality Cuffs My heart was beating but I was no different from a dead person. There is no place for me in this world, hope is merely an illusion.  Standing alone in the vast emptiness, nothing remained after the end of the horizon. But there's still a firm ground beneath my feet to stand on. I don't know for how long I'd reflect on those days. Just wishing for the pain, this life, to end someday so I could escape.  Yet for the first time, I saw the ferocious flame trapped inside me. I feel a strange but warm relief enveloping the pain, sadness, and loneliness that it's confusing. Would I be able to go somewhere? A faraway place where no one can find me. But a dream is only sweet while you're still dreaming. And when I awoke I would sit and stare, still possessed by that dream.  ー侘 寂.

Horror Tales You Tell To Children They say evil is much overwhelming and sinister when the night is deep. It's almost 3 am on the clock, the peak hours have arrived, and the time is ticking.  In a dark room, you laid on your warm bed but you can't stop shivering. You gazed straight ahead on something that was seemingly a shadow,   Suddenly it started moving, shifting in the dark. "Sleep, sleep.." you consoled yourself, pushing away the thoughts that you deemed unnecessary. Though your heart pounced so intense as well as your anxiety. You suddenly ended up asking yourself, "Which is far stronger, the ghosts or your fears?" You realize nothing troubles you at night more than your foolish sins. You finally cleared your head and was struck by fatigue. It is better to be afraid of something nonexistent, Than to direct those feelings to where you can't escape by dreaming. ー侘 寂. (Happy Holloween Season.....time to light up some candles and visit the graves of y...