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Soul-Search How will you know yourself, If you always link it with others? Can you remember where you came from? Can you still recognize every path you took? Where is the child who once dreamed? Where did you hide him? Did you bury him? The person closest to you is yourself, But even that person is now a stranger to you. What did you do and why did you drive yourself away? Seeking love from others is what drained you and made you exhausted. Know that life isn't always meant to be with somebody, But to find reconciliation with yourself is what you need. ー 侘寂.

Forget Youn't It was supposed to be our first meeting, and yet I was certain I've known you from the moment our eyes met. Familiar scenarios with you then flashed in my mind. The two of us used to walk home while we held hands; You bought me my favorite burger when I fell sick; And I loved it every time I pinch your earlobes because it's squishy. We've done a lot of things, and this is exactly why the hole in my heart that was left by you can't be filled. You wore an iron face and stared at me with those cold eyes, to what seems like a stranger in front of you.  I'm now a person who won't even cross your mind even before and after you sleep. To think that for you to get away from me is what I used to want, I'd be lying if I said I'm glad you finally forget of my existence because this is never fine. But just like what happened to us, this lingering regret will not last.   I'm just content with shrouding myself in those memories. As it is the only...

"Paghilom" Dumating sa punto na ang buwan ang natatanging sandalan, Dito lamang pinapakita ang lahat ng kahinaan at kapaguran. Gumagaan ang loob sa tuwing tinatamaan ng liwanag na Mula sa buwan, unti-unting iniibsan nito ang lamig at manhid sa pusong basag. At sa pag-sapit ng araw ay muling babalik sa reyalidad, Patuloy lamang sa pagtakbo ang oras at hindi ka nito babalikan sakaling ikaw ay maiwan. Bumibigat na ang katawan ngunit kailangan ihakbang ang nangangawit na mga paa Para sa tahanan na nawasak, gagawin ang lahat para maibalik kaya't patuloy pa rin na hihinga.  ー侘 寂. #BangonLuzon

 Stay Present 'I wish I could turn back time.' How many times does that thought cross your mind? Those were the moments when you don't know where it went wrong.  You lay on your bed and feel the weight of your worries, you're busy trying to find out why. You wanted to know what mistakes you made and apologize for what you did. If only you could turn back time and change your past. But it's a good thing that such a selfish request is impossible to ever happen.  Because even though we had such thoughts, we'll eventually realize that it won't even make such a difference.  After wandering around and getting lost in the past for a long time which you badly want to forget, Life will always run past you. No matter what you did at that time, you'll repeat another failure and regret it again.   ー侘 寂.

  Mania What a beautiful night, as always. And yet, this is another sleepless night for one who desperately waits. When is this going to end? I felt like it was forever. I can still remember, although vague. Your dazzling eyes shined brightly under the moonlight at the window, with a tiny smile on your face. But as I dug deeper into my memories of you, every time I thought of it, my chest tightened.  After getting a taste of that sweetness you gave, even if it was brief, I couldn’t escape from it. I was trapped. I felt lonely. Possessed by your fading scent. Now, I had to acknowledge the immeasurable distance you created between us. Even farther than the stars gleaming brilliantly in the evening sky. Worry not, that didn't matter as I tried to convince myself that I’m okay without learning your whereabouts. Still, I wasn’t okay at all. I was lying to myself. I was drunk on the warmth and affection that I felt for the first time in my life, not knowing I was like a moth drawn t...

How Many Tons Does A Heart Weigh? I wonder how my heart's been doing lately Does it get cold and feel alone? It beats ever so slightly When was the last time when it felt all warm and fuzzy? It's been so long since it had its last company If... only if you could return to my arms ----- No, I must stop myself from even trying to remember you I know you've been living life the way you want it After you freed yourself from my intoxicating embrace But, what do I do with these emotions that remain? My heart went dry and is struggling to contain The heavyweight that remains in my chest I can only struggle helplessly, thoughts are still clouded  How soft must I have gone?  It's no problem for you but mine Breaking down under the pale moonlight  Wondering when will my heart be alright. ー侘 寂.