exordiri

'consistently inconsistent' Tired of running and chasing While facing the doors that were heavily locked  Which is believed to contain endless joy and peace inside of it I don't know when I could catch it up Those were still miles and miles away from my reach So when I sat down, I quietly told myself that, 'You need a strong heart to easily get back on track after a short rest.' I regret that I took advantage of the belief which often happens in films That no matter what hardship takes place, it will always have a happy ending When I realized all that was just made up I can't help but laugh especially at things  That requires effort and struggle Because deep down, I knew I was still weak I know I still can’t do anything in the end I'm shameless to even whine about everything Without even giving my all when I'm trying. ー侘寂.

'id' Memories would disappear But some would stay for a lifetime Memories are fun to dwell into So I close my eyes and see my past I will always think that I know this place Where there is a glorious sky with infinite stars Until I'd wake up to the sound of nothing With unbearable loneliness that I've been trying to hide It's those nights when sleep is so fleeting That my mind wanders until the morning comes Just always remind me of the good times I've had 'Cause I want to feel good about myself once in a while. ー侘寂.